Hearts' calling

I just finished doing yoga. I did yoga for years and it has been years since I did it. And it feels a bit like I had a massage. I traded it in years ago for a second walk for several reasons.

I don't like getting directions on how to breathe.

I don't have to go at a certain time.

I don't have to change my clothes to walk. Activities that require me to change my clothes never work out for me. 

And I could never seem to create an at home routine for yoga.

But yoga is good. I know this. It is good for me. It slows me down and stretches me out. It soothes me. And still I don't do it. I did it today because I am away for a retreat and that was part of it. And I enjoyed it. Right now I feel fully relaxed. And I know I will do it again tomorrow. But after that when I go home I likely won't do it. 

And here is my question to you. Why?

Why is it that sometimes we do not to do the things that make us feel good?

Why is it that sometimes I over eat? I know I won't feel good but I do it anyway.

It is a funny thing this humanness that makes us misjudge, or miss out on something that makes us feel good. Our body calls for us to listen but we ignore it. 

So many people tell me they want to make art. They want to write, or paint but they cannot seem to make time for it. This seems to be true for so many. They know it will make them feel good but they don't do it. You can suggest a few things to them but you are quickly shut down with roadblocks firmly in place. I have started to believe that if we truly want to do something we will make time for it. Whether it is walking, yoga, making art, dancing, or seeing friends. And now I tell people this when they ask me how I make time for art. 

And I truly want to walk more than I want to do yoga. And so that is why yoga will not be my number one thing even though it's great and feels good. If I really wanted to do yoga I would.

And sometimes I too tell myself I want to paint. I have an easel and some paints set up in a room that is rarely used and I never paint because I want to hook more. And this is a choice I make. If I really wanted to paint and had a calling in my heart for it then I would paint. That's the thing we need to listen for, the hearts calling. It is a clear and pure sound but we need to pay attention to it. It can get lost in the noise of life.